It’s been a rather interesting couple of weeks, I’ve been experiencing feelings I never knew existed. It’s as if someone gave me an extra finger, not sure what to do with it and kind of surprised/scared at the same time. My baby brother, well he’s an adult but still-parents know what I’m talking about-he’s been bringing a girlfriend around the family. He has never done this before, and the thing is, he’s an adult now so it’s totally different because he’s at that age where he’s thinking about the future-settling down and all.
At first I didn’t understand what was happening to me, I couldn’t explain the feelings, but then I sat with myself and really listened to what was happening-and it shocked me. I was feeling a little jealous because the time we used to spend together would now be shared, and I was also feeling a little concerned wondering if this person is good for him-this was the older protective sister side coming out. All these feelings totally foreign to me, I couldn’t figure out what to do with them.
After some moments of awkwardness I realized that I needed to share what was starting to become apparent, I explained these feelings to him and told him that no matter what I respected his space regardless if I liked the girl or not.
The good news-life is still happening- I’m still alive, and I get to experience ‘firsts.’ God is good, that’s what’s wonderfull.