“As kids, we spontaneously sing and dance and tell stories, and along the way, someone comes and says, ‘No. You shouldn’t be doing that.’ And we slowly begin to unlearn our passions. I think you have to hold on to those things.”- J. Michael Straczynski
The more time passes by, the more I feel like I forget what ‘home’ is. Though I’ve made spiritual progress along my journey, there are things I remember doing as I child that are not at my grasp presently. There is also the connection with my source that I established, mostly out of need, as a child that I feel has somewhat changed.
As I reflect on what could have caused these changes in my spiritual life one thing that comes to mind is practice, I no longer practice the things that I was gifted with as a child, I stopped due to fear. Another thing that has shifted my connection is the challenges that I’ve had to overcome on earth, some of which I am still healing from. It is like they have created a layer of dirt over my youthful self, my true self. Being around people a lot more has also transformed my connection. Growing up, my mother did not like being around people, so besides going to school, I was mostly isolated. I’ve learned habits from others, some good others not so good, sometimes these things just sneak up and become me without noticing them.
So how do I unclutter my soul? Learning to unlearn that which no longer serves me and remembering what home was like, who I was before all the garbage that I had to endure came piling over me like an avalanche. I take it one step at a time.